Yesterday I talked about how sick I was. I still am. I bike to work each day, and it’s really nice along the lake in Chicago. And normally I’m loving it. It’s not an easy ride, though. I have my dog strapped to my back, and I have a pannier with my work clothes (suit stuff) draped across the back on the bike. The ride is about ten miles, and when it’s windy it sucks.
I looked online to see what the doctors say about exercising while having a cold. There’s no consensus other than it probably doesn’t hurt you if you’re not pushing too hard.
I’ve been jacked up on pseudoephedrine for two straight days. You have to realize – I don’t drink, smoke, do drugs, or caffeine. Because I love all of those things more than you love your wedding dress. So, when I take a little cold medicine, it screws with me.
I have a relatively big announcement coming up – something I’ve been working on for awhile. By the time I biked home from work I had already convinced myself it was the worst idea on the planet. I was overcome with fear and sadness. I had no idea why. I thought, “Well, I have to trust my instincts, and my emotions are telling me to 86 it.”
Then I got home and realized this was probably the Sudafed screwing with me.
I was then slammed with massive paranoia – not that people were after me or anything. Nobody is after me. Well, I’m pretty sure. Of course I have a list and everything. We all do. A dozen names. You know who you are.
I’m conscious enough to know it’s just the meds, but man, that is some uncomfortable stuff. It was sort of funny watching myself be freaked out for no reason. I know it’s not grounded in reality, but even knowing that didn’t stop the fear. Which is weird because I rarely experience fear. Or at least without some stimulus I can point to and rationalize.
I feel better now and the fear and sadness has all but left. I’m still sick and a little screwy on the medicine.
Actually I had two announcements today – ha. I’ll table them for now, since this is getting wordy.
And if any of you are out to get me, I’d advise to wait a few days until I’m totally unprepared. See, I just helped you out! I’m a giver!
