I had a bit of an emotional revelation last night.
This is different than an intellectual revelation, which is a consciousness to a solution. I’m pretty good at that stuff about solving problems. Whether I’m trying to figure out a new business development strategy at work or delve into my own psyche, I usually come up with the “answer.” I can’t often implement it, however. This is where support groups and therapy and intimate friendships are helpful.
Nope. It doesn’t.
Freshman year of high school I was in speech class working on a monologue about pet peeves. We each had to pick one annoyance and present it to the class. I racked my brain trying to come up with something that bothered me but nothing surfaced. I finally found one almost twenty years later.
…to write this post for you.
As you may know I have written every day this year so far. I laid down (lie, lied, lay, laid? – nobody knows for sure) to just rest for a few minutes at around 9pm. Two hours later I woke up with a mild annoyance that I had forgot to do something. So here I am. Appreciate the dedication! Or don’t.
Okay, I think I’ve found out in my relationships what triggers me into annoyance and then flat-out anger. It’s actually quite simple. See if you can dig this.
Something unusual is happening in the present. I make a comment about said unusual thing. The people I’m speaking to don’t recognize what’s unusual, or argue with me that it’s not true. Since I don’t think I’m nuts I try to explain again what I’m witnessing, and they keep pushing back. Then I raise my voice.
I'll never give this child another cigarette, pinky swears!
