I have never received energy from caffeine… after getting caffeine into my body, I have to go to bed, like immediately, I get tired even of doing absolutely nothing. It’s kinda weird – caffeine does to me exactly the opposite of what it should. But I never heard somebody would have anxiety issues because of it… are you sure it’s because of the caffeine? I heard that caffeine only contributes to anxiety so I would say it’s possible that something else causes it and caffeine just helps you to realize it.

When it comes to staying present – have you tried meditation? It’s a little bit strange – It’s kinda boring yet fulfilling at same time. I recommend it if you have problems with anxiety and feelings of boredom. It helped me and I don’t even do it on regular basis, just when I seem to have problems just like these… It really does help.

Hope you will overcome this.
PS: Excuse my English, it’s not my first language.

Secondly, I feel your pain – except my problem is peanut butter, which I wrote about on my website/blog if you’re interested. I don’t think I eat it to escape boredom, necessarily, and while peanut butter may not give me the rush of mainlining heroin (though I wouldn’t know personally), my taste buds/psyche so love the culinary nirvana it induces.

But back to your problem…:). Have you considered doing something ELSE to alleviate the tedium of ordinary life? I realize this may sound terribly cliche, but you’re obviously very creative – maybe consider taking a painting class? Or if that’s too tame, maybe hang gliding or something else to break up the monotony of day-to-day life? Challenging myself physically by taking a spinning class or doing yoga for an hour helps me avoid consuming and/or craving the P BUTTER, and all of the above, obviously, are a lot healthier.

I realize a spinning class doesn’t sound very exciting, but when you’re 48, and you have bad knees, um, yeah, I’m proud to say I fared better than the 20-somethings in my class the first day! 🙂 And to me, that totally rocked, and the endorphin rush was a good substitute for eating my nemesis (yes, peanut butter – what’d you think I meant ? 🙂 ).

If my suggestions won’t work for you, I’d say STEP ONE – stop buying caffeinated beverages. If they’re not in easy reach makes it easier for me at least. If you don’t curtail this habit somehow you could eventually cause your heart some serious damage. My son, who is 27, was hospitalized 5-6 years ago for overdosing on caffeine from too much coffee plus several Red Bulls in a 24-hour period, and now he gets heart palpitations if he drinks more than one cup of coffee, and he LOVES coffee, so that totally sucks.

Anywho – enough said. GOOD LUCK in eradicating the demon caffeine from you life! 🙂 And thanks for sharing! 🙂

Lynne Logan/TenaciousBitch
Columbus, Ohio

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